Heal or Reveal. . .

These are our prayers for Jason right now--that God would either heal him or reveal to us and the doctors what is going on with him. We went to the ER this morning and did not have a good experience. We basically feel that we were written off, and there were a number of mistakes and discrepancies in his care this morning that have us seriously concerned about the doctor who was making decisions in his case. We felt that Jason should have been admitted today and instead, we were sent home with CT scan scheduled for 9am tomorrow morning. The ER doctor consulted only with the GI doctor and when we asked him to consult with the primary care doctor before releasing him, we were told that "He would agree with us and defer to us on this decision anyway." After leaving, we put in a call to the primary care doctor and are still waiting for a call back.

Jason is in too much pain and under the influence of too much medicine to make decisions or fight for himself, right now. They did send him home with some medicine, so they were not completely heartless, but we do not feel that the medicine he has will be able to control the pain. I have to keep reminding myself that God already knows what is wrong with Jason. It will be revealed (or not) at His choosing and in His timing. Please pray for me to have a quiet and peaceful heart about this, because, right now, I must confess that my heart is far from quiet and peaceful. It is hard to see him hurting like this and not be able to help him.

I am holding on to Isaiah 30:15 today for myself: "In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength. . ."

And for Jason: Ps 139:13-16 "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."

and Jeremiah 1:5 "Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you; before you were born I set you apart. . ."

God knows exactly what Jason needs and what will help him and those who love him. He has a plan for Jason and for us. Praise His Name.